Today marks the first month that I'm in love with Krist. I still really really like him.

I'm so tempted to do an appreciation post for SOTUS the series & also an appreciation post for Krist but okay that can wait. Today, I'm just gonna talk about how is life now for me. 

I've been really lazy for these two weeks. I've been staying at home and watching dramas/series. I realised that I don't really start or continue conversations with people so much anymore. I'm just not interested in socialising anymore. I think when I was in school for the past four months, I was so indulged in school work and socialising. I did not have any individual time and I hated it. I love how life is now. I love how I appreciate myself more and realise that I can still do a lot of things without others with me. I can go out and shop alone. I can get my own groceries and cook for myself. I can entertain myself pretty well with all the dramas piling up in my list hahaha. 

I just learned that it is necessary to give yourself a break from the world from time to time. It is good to spend some time with yourself. Try to understand and appreciate yourself more. Also, I've learned to surround myself with positive vibes and positive people. I choose to only hang out with people that I feel comfortable and happy with, genuinely. 

This holiday, I've also decided to take up another challenge which is to participate in the press conference. I don't know if I will be able to juggle it well with my other modules but I'm going to give it a try. 

Also, I've realised that I probably have the most "i don't give a fuck" attitude ever. I'm so ignorant and oblivious to everything that is happening around me. I legit don't care actually. I just can't be bothered with the lives of others and how things are going. I just know that I'm quite happy myself and that is pretty much good enough for me. 

I've also been following this youtuber that adopts babies and she even has a down syndrome daughter that was adopted. I think it's really great and admirable and it inspires me so much. I was telling my mom that I will want to adopt kids too one day (esp from Africa) and my mom has no objection. I mean it has always been something that I want to do since young. I've always thought and still think that adoption is a wonderful thing because you are providing a life, a meaningful and happy one to a kid who deserves it. I just can't wait for that day where I can settle down as a mom and adopt adorable children. I also want to either adopt/buy a dog to grow up with my kids (': . This is my dream. 

BUT before all the above can happen, I will need to work. I will need to have a stable and steady income to provide for others and myself. I still have no idea in which career field am I most interested in but well, I hope the next 1.5 years in poly will lead me to the answer. 

That's all actually hahaha. This holiday I spent it to learn more about myself, fall more in love with Krist (delusional but I'm happy) and have a dream that I want to fulfil.