Be more assertive. Be more firm but don't be overly demanding. Pin-point mistakes and just confront people directly. Do not be nice, do not give people a third chance. Do not, do not let people step on you.

"Once you enter poly, you become very nice. But like it's too much man. They are using you already. You should know when to stop being nice."

She said and I nodded.

"But like you will feel bad."

Again, I nodded. And my heart sank. I can't do it.

I don't think I'm ready to change, to take on another approach when it comes to treating people. I don't know why but I feel like it's always good to understand the plight of others and be nice to them. But in exchange, instead of appreciation and gratitude, people step on me. People make use of me. People talk behind my back. People.....are not nice.

So, fuck you. God is watching. There is karma. Thank you for stepping on me and bullying me. To all you motherfuckers out there who are making use of nice people and leveraging on them, fuck you. You might be smarter, you might be more talented heck you might even be more successful but trust me, deep down, you know, you are a fucking piece of shit.

To my nice people out there, be more firm, be more assertive but don't ever do things that hurt others. Don't...don't be as shallow as those who have hurt you. You are better, you can do better. Don't ever give up and just keep going. You will be fine, you are doing good.