March x

                                                                     (cr.owner)

Alright let's go straight to pouring out my feelings and thoughts.

This month has been a rather fine one except for some mixed feelings and just plain stupid matters, the rest are fine. This short one week holiday is not even a holiday for me because I still have school every single day and I kinda regret attending the last one because fuck skipping it would be way better. Heol. However, on a happy note, I met up with my dearest girls Ning and Thaina. Well as usual we settled down for a round of steamboat and as usual , we talked about our future, our current life and everything.

I loved this month till a few days ago.

Not gonna blame anyone but myself. I've been foolish and I've been immature. Sometimes I wished I live somewhere with only the closest friends so I don't have to entertain and deal with other stuffs. Sometimes I wished god would just have the people who would never leave my life till death stay with me. I rather not have a big social circle and just have an amount of real friends that I can count with my fingers.

I've learnt to realise that no matter how much I've loved and put in effort for someone, it's nothing when that person doesn't appreciate or cares. I've learnt to give up. I've learnt to stop trying.

Most importantly, I've learnt to stop telling others how I really feel , I've learnt to stop opening up so easily, I've learnt to live on my own, to rely on my own, just because, I'm going to be the one picking myself up when I fall.

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