I remember noticing Dongbangshinki back in 2008 when I watched Mirotic. And tbh , the first one I noticed and liked was Jaejoong because of his outstanding looks. Then soon , I fell for all five of you and couldn't decide on a bias till one day, I started liking you more out of the five and bam! You became my bias. What made me fall for you wasn't your looks but your voice and your attitude. I love how emotional you are , how dorky you are , how sentimental you are , how playful you are and how lovely you are. Your flaws , the scar on your face and the others , makes you 'you' and that is perfect. Park Yoochun , I might not be the best fan because I can't be there for you physically and always buying your albums and watching your concerts but I really adore and love you , more than you can ever expect. I'm always waiting for that one day to see you live, to hear you sing and see you do fanservice , be it to me or other Cassiopeia. And also , to just be with you up close. It's so funny , how much you can actually affect me. Tbh , there are times I felt like giving up on DBSK because ... heol it has been almost 4-5 years since your separation and no matter how much I wanna be strong and hold on , sometimes , I'm just tired and just wanna give up on everything but just thinking of living without seeing your pictures and hearing your voice , eyy ~ I can't even do it. You are the first idol I cried for . I cry when you cry during the award ceremony , I cry when you cry in your dramas , I cry when you lost your dad , I cry when you , YOU WENT BALD . But one thing I'm proud of is , I didn't cry when I saw rumours of you dating online (it was fake tho) . I know one day , you will find your destined one and although I'm not prepared (like seriously haha) I'm still going to give you my blessings and still love and respect you as my no.1 . Although on that day I'm going to cry like no tomorrow , I know it's a good thing because finally you will have your miss right and she will give you those heart fluttering moments and let you feel butterflies in your stomach... all those feelings that will make you happy and just that , makes me happy too. And another thing is , on that day that you enlist , I'm probably going to cry again but oh well , our Yoochun is going to serve the country and be a man! Yoochun , I hope you get back to singing and performing soon. I love your acting and I know you likes it but the one I truly fell for was Singer Dongbangshinki's Park Yoochun , come back to singing , come back to having Cassiopeia chanting and cheering for you live , come back to performing with your brothers.
And now , the purpose of this post. I hope your loved ones like Jae and Su will be there for you now. I know you are not fine now , you are probably crying and having a mental break down, that is perfectly normal. Cry your heart out Yoochun, you don't have to put on a strong front . Condolence to Manager Park and I hope he will find his place in heaven and be happy. You too, Yoochun, I know it will be hard to get over it and move on but take it slowly , you will. And I hope , for you to be happy again too. Losing one last year , it is bad enough and now you lost your beloved manager again... how much pain , I can't even imagine. I just wish for time and your loved ones to heal you.
Thank you for being Park Yoochun. I will always be by your side , believing you and always keep the faith. You and Dongbangshinki , are the one , eternally. I love you.
Your sincerely , your fan.
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