#lost

Hi babyloves , i'm just back for a ranting update again but before that i'm going to share with you guys what i did yesterday okay ha ha ha , need to share.

Met up with Huilin , Raine and Joey yesterday at Kallang and on my way there , i have to pass by Stadium which brought back sooo much memories , and when i reached Stadium , my playlist was playing KEEPYOURHEADDOWN ... this just adds up to how much more i miss HOMIN le sighs i wanna meet them again , all 5 of them together! Anyway we met up and i swear Raine is super cute ha ha our convo went something like this (text)

Raine : MACPHERSON . Are you fine with MacDonald ?
Me: You send to wrong person?
Raine: NO I JUST NEVER DELETE MACPHERSON .

Okay if you don't geddit , i thought she was sending this to huilin who was with me but she was texting huilin about where she was already . She then send me about our lunch place and asked if i'm fine with it . I thought she was at macpherson but she actually typed wrongly 'macdonald' as 'macpherson' and didn't delete it . HAHA ok i find it very cute okay .

Lunch at pastamania and Joey was super cute haha she went ' does eating too much cheese cause diabetes? ' . Went to arcade and a few game with them before proceeding to iceskating . I swear i felt so fucking insecure and paranoid because i can't even skate moreover iceskate! I was complaining so much but girls just calmed me down and i love them because they stayed by my side especially Huilin when they could just let me hang around the wall and enjoy themselves LOL , i can't find sweeter people than them hee hee i love these girls. Iceskating got me closer to them in many ways which i will keep it as a secret he he /protecting my girls/ . Hmm conclusion is i love yesterday and my girls.

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Tbh i'm very stressed with life , i don't know who will stay by me till the end . I really hate it because , i don't know how to express myself , how i actually feel . I have to be strong and try to make sure everything is fine when me my fucking self ain't fine at all . People keep their secrets , people get hurt , people lie , people left me , so how am i fucking suppose to feel happy and calm ? I get paranoid easily now and i hate how i feel , seriously. I just wanna cry and pour out all my troubles to someone who will stay by me till the end and will protect me . Insecurities , i have too many . Sadness , it's getting doubled up almost everyday. Life , ain't treating me well .