Sad Stuffs.

Firstly , i would like to wish Chunnie a happy birthday . Sorry sweet boy , didn't had enough time to do a long blog post for you but i still love you a lot , more than a lot :-* ! Okay i hope everything will be fine for you , don't frown or cry okay , you know it hurts more for us when we see you not okay . I miss the old DBSK but i'm willing to wait . For now , I'll be supporting both (: . Stay happy chunnie , you are our best smiley boy always , our english boy , love you xx.

Okay kbox today with @stuckx1000 @widewiderwidest . We sang for 5 hours and i had the most fun today , okay probably because i saw a guy that look so much like Seungo from Mblaq , like OHMYFUCKINGAWD is he even a human !? So we sang so many songs and had so much fun . Homed at 8 and out with mommy again to get dinner ... like so long since i stepped into Kovan !! Was expecting to buy some -smellytoufu- home but it's not selling today , mad sad !! Okay but i cheered up after seeing other FOOD , haha yeah i'm not that loyal after all ... they are all food what :D !

Okay people through some things that happen this few days , i learn how to let go of things and not hold on to useless things . I had a bestfriend who i held on to for long this year and thought we would get back as close as the past but the only thing i got back was disappointment . I cried many times for this friendship , more than  crying in r/s , after all this girl was with me for 5 solid years ? I am so sorry to those i turn on a deaf ear to when they asked me to let go of this . I kind of realised how much i gave in and know it's time to give up . Yeah I had always been hinting her by blog post but it seems that she don't fucking give a damn to me anymore. Maybe I gave her the wrong words , telling her to make new friends but probably she thought make new best friends and let go of the current friends . I am utterly disappointed with her actions so many times .. what can i do ? I'm not her priority anymore. I just wanna know , did she even cried for me , like once ? Sigh , probably she isn't even feeling sad that our friendship ended , yeah she won't . I just hope i'm really ready to give up after telling her i'm giving up . Also , i must thank @PanForPanther @Stuckx10000 @widewiderwidest for being there for me during my toughest moments , i love them so much that i can die .


"Every tear should live its purpose. Don't ever wipe the reason away."


"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again."


"In the end , everything will be alright . If it's not alright , it's never the end."